Do you ever find yourself searching? Searching for the keys, your purse or a wallet, the TV remote, a certain pair of shoes… I frustrate myself so many times over these small things and in my searching end up losing precious time. I use to think I was pretty good at putting things back where they belong, but somehow, searching, seems to be a reverberating theme in our house. I blame the teenagers!!!!!!!
Fortunately for them, I cannot blame them for all of my searchings. There are many other aspects of my life that I find I exhaust my energy and lose precious time in searching. For love, money, value, security, hope, meaning – these are just a few. But Why? Why do we search for such things using our energy and losing our time? After all, God has already said He would care for us. He tells over and over again in His Word that He has great plans for us. No matter, we search…
Over the past few months I have found myself in a whirlwind of circumstances. I have had no control over any of it, but as the circumstances began to multiply and intensify I did realize I had choices to make. I will not spell it all out – it would take way too long and there is someone out there that has a deeper story than mine. What I will tell you is that as each circumstance began to roll in so did my searching. My faith stretched its arms out trying to steady me, but after three or four blows, the tears came. My faith was trembling. The battle began to rage and that put me in full on searching mode for answers and comfort.
The questioning began: Why was all this happening? Why now? What are you doing to me? I thought you said it would get better? When will it stop? I don’t think I can handle anymore. My prayer: Father, I don’t want to stop believing and trusting, but… Help me? Please? Little did I know this was only the first round battle.
The second round did not let me catch a breath. It came with a vengeance. The waves were bigger. The winds stronger. The circumstances now fully unraveling. I fell to my knees, crying to my Heavenly Father and yelling as if in utter defiance to the storm, “I will NOT stop believing.” My silent disclaimer: “But Father, You better be telling me the truth – that You will never leave me…”. Truth be told, I was scared to death.
I had yet to realize that just maybe this was what He was waiting for. Waiting for me to defy the storm by believing Him. In that moment He took me to a place within my heart where an unbelievable peace and happiness resides. I had never discovered this place before. There, He reminded me that no matter how the circumstances raged – He already had all the answers. “Nothing” had taken Him by surprise! And nothing would overcome me as long as I would Trust Him. What a relief. I remained on my knees for sometime – literally. But spiritually, I began to STAND TALL! The searching ceased and peace ran rampant.
John 16:33 says, I have told you these things, so that IN ME you may have PEACE. In this world you WILL have trouble. But take heart! I have OVERCOME the world.
And in Isaiah 54:10 He said – Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my UNFAILING LOVE for you will not be shaken nor MY COVENANT OF PEACE be removed, SAYS THE LORD, who has compassion on you.
He loves me and you! He knows our journey and the circumstance we will face. Let our searching stop and our trust reside in Him for He has compassion on you!!